"Women are expected to work like they have no children and parent like they have no job."

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32. If you have a healthcare provider you regularly talk to

Please, please, please confide in them what you've just said here. There are resources and support groups for caregivers who are going through what you described. Caregiver burn out is real. Your mental health is important, too.

I promise nothing you've said is unusual and many other spouses and children in your position feel and go through this - particularly the guilt part.

It is good and necessary to ask for help, even only if it's for the benefit of your mental health. Sometimes particularly if it will help with your mental health. Absolutely no one in the health profession who work with neurological disorders is going to judge you for needing help. It's extremely common.

Please ask about and take advantage of resources if you're able. It's normal to talk about what you're dealing with and normal to shed tears over it. You're having a basic human response.