A little sign that I might be getting a bit better [View all]
One of the first BIG signs that I needed help was me losing a lot of my self confidence. That just fed the anxiety and depression issues and it's been an ongoing battle. I was fearless and now I'm feeling some of the confidence returning.
Example: I needed to buy a new lawn tractor. The 'original' me would have no issues with that. After all, I've been pretty adventurous, up until the last 10 years. The 'broken' me would have needed someone to go with me and help me decide on what to buy. Actually, they would have done the choosing. The 'hopefully recovering myself' me started researching and then checking out the potential fits for my need. Yesterday I bought a nice one. All by myself. It was dropped off, this morning, and I immediately started doubting I could figure out how to get it up and running.
Then I kicked myself in the ass, started reading the operating manual and familiarizing myself with the bits and bobs that makes it run. And guess what - I DID IT, ALL BY MYSELF!! As soon as the dew dries from the grass I'll head out and get started on the mowing.
So I'm feeling pretty chuffed with myself. I have a therapy appointment on Monday and I know this update will be very well received.
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